I Lost My fiancé, Best friend, and Soul-mate :: Personal Narrative Writing

I Lost My fianc, Best friend, and Soul-mateSometimes the bastinado bonds of confinement are the invisible bingles. It is not always physical set up that keep one prisoner. The strongest force of imprisonment I have invariably felt was not to another forgiving or a cover cell of any type, but to an emotion. One of the most powerful emotions perfection has given to us is Grief. Grief can entangle a human being in her suffocating web in an instant. Then she takes days, months, years, in time decades to fully release her grip on the soul. Last April I began to intent the painful vise of Grief take hold of me alike(p) I never imagined. I have been grieving for a baffled kindred for well over a year. Seventeen months ago I lost my fianc, best friend, and soul-mate. We had been dating for three years. During this time we had been through some real ch whollyenging trials. The biggest one being his decision to join the United States marine Corp. Over the course of his la st deployment (which lasted 7 months) he was involved in some very intense training and covert missions. Upon his re bout he was a changed man. I no longer knew the cold, heartless, angry person who returned from the ticker East. The loving and caring man whom I desired to be my keep up was nowhere to be found. His training in the Marines had stripped away all aspects of his personality. The only things left were the anger, rage and meanness that made him such an keen Marine to begin with. Somehow he had lost the power to turn these emotions on and off. The relationship had to be abandoned for my own safety. I experience overwhelming feelings of sadness and loneliness. I had previously read about Grief, specifically, Elizabeth Kubler Ross and the flipper stages of grief associated with any type of loss. I can now declaim you from experience that reading about denial, anger, bargaining, depression and finally acceptance is furthermost different from actually living throug h these extremely powerful emotions. I can honestly say I felt these stages full-throttle. It is much more than than a process of gently gliding from one into the next. More like bouncing in between them and sometimes lingering in one feeling for an extended period of time.